BEACH FEEL

I promise to love you always.

SUZIE Q: I

I didn't know what else to do but listen to the records my stepfather gave to me. The distinct sentiment that hung in the air when I played one after another made me think about the classic image he would always reiterate his stories with. I was never sure why he was also confident, I never bothered to find out either. A placid expression falls on his face when he realizes where he's at now, where he's driving, and how many years have gone by. Why does it matter now? Idle thoughts will always fall short of significant. I stared at the record spin aimlessly on the turntable, part one of the song was over. My thoughts of her folded throughout the corners of my mind until the words settled. I love her like none other, but her words drive needles through my skin. I want her to feel better, to heal, to finally be happy. How do I make it happen when nothing I do makes a difference? She says it's all on her, but I feel so useless it's dragging a stake through my heart.

I WANT TO GO HOME, HOME.

BLURRY VISION

I  feel terrible for not updating my blog since the beginning of the year, but so many new things have happened! I moved into my new place; it's a tiny little single that barely fits all of my stuff, but it makes me really happy. I have never lived alone and this new life has taught me many things about independence and taking care of yourself. I grew up rather spoiled and rotten because of my mother's incessant adoration, so it's been rather hard for me over the past three years to adjust. However, I think this time I've really settled into it. I can do it, I can live alone and be alone.

"Don't cry in the dark, just open the door."

My chest feels like it's twisting into a series of knots that I can't unravel.

GOOD-BYE, BELLEVUE

2013 RESOLUTIONS

Today marked the start of winter session and I couldn't have been happier than I was when I walked out my door and saw the sun shining bright on me on the way to the bus stop. I don't care if it sounds nerdy, but I really couldn't wait to get to my class and start diving into the new material. I'm taking a a geography class to make up the one I bombed last spring. Originally, I wasn't so sure how to feel how about it, but after the first class today, I feel confident and comfortable enough with the professor's teaching style and the context of the course that I'm positive I'll get the grade I want. Even though I'm not that into natural sciences, I like the fact it's a challenge. I feel like I stayed in the safe zone last year and sort of let my laziness become a hindrance to my overall learning. I'm ready to change this and become a productive college student from now on. It's never too late to  leave the life of procrastination! (Or at least try to, right?) Speaking of change and productivity, I found an incredibly helpful new years resolution guide on LitReactor to establish some solid and concrete resolutions and goals to improve my writing and overall confidence.

My Resolutions:

"Make your goals as specific as possible. Vague “I’ll write more” kind of resolutions are way too easy to fudge...Consistency is the magic behind establishing new habits. "

    [1.] I will write for 30 minutes or 500 words a day.

WELCOME TO THE NEW YEAR

 To welcome my new year, I made a brand new blog to post my short stories, daily photos/365, and  general updates on anything and everything. Unlike last year, I intend to make 2013 a year I'll be proud of next year.