April's Fool

I've been slacking off again and I think I need to withdraw from a class but I don't know if I can. I could lose my job, I probably will actually. I don't want to be affected by my emotions but I've learned one can't be scared of their emotions. They will devour your mind and soul no matter what. April is long gone, but I was still her fool. It is May now and I want to finally breathe again. Let me feel nothing, pleasepleaseplease.